I'm really bad at keeping this thing up to date! lol 

Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers the past few weeks.  They are greatly appreciated. 

I'm getting so excited because next week I'm heading out to San Diego to see my dad and brother for the first time in 4 years and a lot of my family that I've never met.  I'm also going to be on a plane for the first time so please pray for me!

I hope everyone is enjoying their summers!  Oh and not to rain on anyone's parade or anything, but **uh-hum**  ONLY 4 WEEKS UNTIL SCHOOL STARTS!!!   I can't wait.  I've already gotten all my school supplies and everything.  I still can't believe I'm a junior this year! yaya lol

Anyway, I gots to go.  peas out!   lol

Hey everyone!  Summer's here-finally!  Lots has been going on but I can't explain right now.  I'll just say my life is on the rocks and I have no idea which way I'm gonna fall- but nevertheless, a fall is in the future.  I just hope I don't fall too hard cause let me tell you, it hurts.  lol  Anyway, I know no matter where, when, how this situation turns out, Jesus is and will be with me.  I just hope I can make the right decision.  By the way, if you just happen to have a free moment, please say a prayer for me that God will give me the wisdom and discernment needed for me to make the right decision.  Thanks a bunch.  I hope everyone here knows how much I love them and have come to appreciate them. 

Currently Reading To Kill a Mockingbird By Harper Lee see related

Wow! What a crazy life I've lived since I last updated.  So much has happened and there's no way to tell all.  I will let everyone know that doesn't already know that Clayton and I are over.  He broke up with me on the FFA trip to the State competitions.  We didn't make it to nationals like I had hoped. : (  Anyway, life was hard for a while.  It's getting loads better.  I rededicated my life to Christ Wednesday, April 26.  God lifted burdens.  I still struggle with trials but who doesn't. 

I've pretty much given up on the idea of dating right now.  I figure I need to let my heart mend before getting entangled in another mess. lol  Not to mention, my heart still beats harder when I'm around him, my stomach fills with butterflies, and my thoughts go crazy.  It's embarassing to be the one head over heels and being rejected.

Well, I gots to go for now.  Sorry I didn't leave on a high note this time.

Currently Reading Great Expectations (Scholastic Classics) By Charles Dickens see related

Sorry I haven't updated in so long.  Xanga has been blocked at school and I don't have access to Internet at home.  I know. I know.  I'm behind but life does go on without the hookup. lol

Anyway, life's been pretty darn good.  I've turned 16 since I last updated and have a great boyfriend.  *wink wink* I talked about him before in my ramblings and I don't think this is new to anybody so yeah.   I haven't gotten to see or talk to him since last Sunday (almost a whole week! What a sob story, right!?!  lol) 

Anyway,  I missed youth this week because I've been sick since Sunday (hmph...odd coincidence! lol And yes, it is coincidence! lol)  I had a bad fever and have been dizzy and congested.  It's not been fun and I really missed youth.  I haven't heard how it went yet.  I'll find out tomorrow because I'm not missing Sunday school! lol 

I don't really have any new exciting tales to tell.  I got a 28 on my ACT and have been flooded with college letters.  No joke!  I'm drowning in them! lol Maybe I just feel I'm drowning because I feel overwhelmed with the possibilities and responsibilities that arrive with the piece of paper awarding false freedom on graduation day.  **shrug**

Well I gotta go for now.  I can't promise when the next time I can update is so don't hold your breath! lol

May God bless and protect all who need Him.  (which of course is my round-about way to say - everybody! lol)

2 Chronicles 7:14     "If my people which are called by my name shall pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways, I shall hear from heaven, and forgive their sin, and heal their land."

I used this in a speech I made several years ago and I am having it inscribed on my class ring.  It really took hold of something inside me.  Ok, I really gotta go now. lol

Currently Listening Collection By Wynonna She is His Only Need (I love this song!) see related

I love going to youth on Wednesdays!!  We have so much fun and you can feel God's presence there more than ever!  It's really awesome.  Several of the peoples I have been praying for have started coming so I know God's working on them.  It's only a matter of time before they ask Him into their hearts! yeah! lol  I can't wait.  I fully believe God is moving in my high school.  I know that for Him to move we have to be His tools and I have been praying for strength to be a good example.  I know that I can't be unless He allows me to because we have no goodness other than the goodness He gives us.  It's so exciting to see God working.  I used to be so convinced that He didn't care and that He wasn't able to work or do anything like He did in the Bible.  I also thought that He was cruel and couldn't possibly love me because so many bad things seemed to happen to me.  I know now that these thoughts are false and a lie from Satan.  I also know that I was just having myself a pity party.  lol  I think about it now and their are so many people that are worse off than me.  I am truly blessed.  I have a roof over my head, a pretty good education, wonderful and caring friends (both girls and guys) and an awesome church and youth group.  And these are only a start.  I could go on and on telling how my parents are pretty cool- my mom and I have a really good relationship (I can tell her just about anything)  and my dad can be pretty cool.  He's really my step-dad but since I have only seen my real dad once I refer to my step as dad.  He can be a jerk sometimes but it's only because he grew up around violence and doesn't know Jesus. 

Anyway, I didn't mean to talk so long.  I have to stop for now.  I didn't even get to talk about some other stuff I wanted to but there's always next time. lol